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I have no idea what I’m doing.

I’ve got three front covers completed. One back cover down. I’ve started creating map art. I’ve started looking into how I want to address distribution.

And umpteen million manuscripts in various forms of drafts or notes. I know that I need to work on my writing, but somehow, everything is going sideways.

I’m letting everything go sideways.

As I write this, Spring Break is looming before me. Typically, I make plans for the break–I’m going to finish this, accomplish that, cook, yardwork, and still have three days left to write!

Mind you, my plans are also typically over-ambitious, and the three days I budget for writing are generally taken up by physical recovery, or by frantically trying to get just one task totally complete, so perhaps not planning Spring Break is a good idea this time.

My optimism is so adorable!

This Spring Break one of my children had wisdom teeth extracted–all four, and all were impacted. I thought: I check on them every few hours, give them meds, food, encouragement, chores, AND I WILL HAVE PLENTY OF TIME TO WORK ON MY WRITING STUFF.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHHH!!!!!!!

Oh, I am absolutely adorable! Chores and child are cared for (which is important). But apparently I don’t *want* to write, because while there is time in between the check-ins and so on, I can find an excuse anywhere to not sit my ass down and do the thing!!!!

In the meantime, book 3 of the first fantasy series is staring at me.

It’s a monster. It didn’t start out that way, but it became one. And not a sadistic one, but an implacable one. One that, even though the first volume rough is contained in a binder, it dominates an entire dining room table.

I’m known for saying “fuck it” and jumping in to DO THE THING; a bit like just ripping a bandage off.

Sometimes I think I’m ready to just rip it off, and I’m all psyched to just start word-barfing *anything* onto the keyboard….

Then Something Happens.

And then the bandage feels too big to tear off, because I’ve spent my mental mojo on Something Else.

GAHHHHHH!!!!!

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