Back when I was a wee child, the Springtime Blahs were a phenomena that was associated with students and teachers only. It’s that vague time between Spring Break and Summer Break where all anybody actively participating in the US public school system cares about is muscling through the last few weeks. The goal is ahead; there’s light at the end of the tunnel; I know you’re tired, but let’s just hang on for a little bit longer.
I don’t recall experiencing the Springtime Blahs after I finished school. It wasn’t until my kids got into middle school that I started to experience it again.
The energy is just sucked out of me, now. Staying on top of work, appointments, family, dogs, the neighbor’s bs, errands, house work, house formaintenance, is it going to rain today, do I need to get someone out here for that tree, should I, can I, I need to…blahblahblah.
I keep coming back to this quote I ran across a while ago–
“Stop being the one who makes the effort. Let the ship sink.”
I’ve never let the ship sink for anyone else. I’ve sunk my own shop a couple-three times, though. I had too much on my plate and something had to give. Fuck it. I tried. I’ll give it another go when things calm down.
Maybe that’s what I’m struggling with in regards to taking the next step to being published: being an indie author is a lot of work in order to get things off the ground. You sink.a.lot of time and personal resources into it, which means I would have to let ships other than my own sink.
A large part of that problem is this: I’m substantially involved in the condition of several of those ships.
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