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Wow. Feels a lot like last year.

Does anyone else notice that, or is that just a “Me” problem?

So. Writing.

Another “Me” problem.

Some goals for the new year:

1. get the small business set up
2. publish one book
3. figure out wordpress
4. continue piddling with marketing ideas

It doesn’t look like a lot, but right now, I’m struggling to move forward. I’ve discovered that making and posting my YouTube videos has done a lot for helping me move past the “Oh, but what if no one likes it?” (hint: Subscribe and comment, please, but only if you think it’s vaguely humorous. Yes, the videos are not well-produced–I’m still learning, and I’ll never be 100% happy with my content anyway, so I think it’s best to just learn as I go and lean into the “clearly just a hobbyist videographer” personae, because, well, I am.)

Turns out, pushing out content is my bigger problem. My ego is fairly unbruised by the lack-luster YouTube reception. Actually, I think it’s been bolstered by it, weirdly enough. The average is roughly 3.7 million videos uploads daily on that platform, and Amazon has actually limited authors to only publishing 3 books a day because there are so many being pushed with AI.

There’s something freeing about confirmed anonymity–it kinda makes you think you can get away with anything. Like slowly independently publishing books that you’ve gnawed your nails off fretting over.

Or dumping 500 pounds of instant jello mix in the governor’s pool at approximately 337am this morning. (Which I know nothing about.)

Understanding WordPress enough to figure out how to just paste in the widget to the few social medias I have is far more stressful, right now. Not all the pre-made templates let you do it, and I haven’t found a template that I really like, so that means I’ll have to make one. Because I have that kind of mental bandwidth.

I remember when I thought writing was easy. And it is, really. It’s the back-end work to get all the other stuff lined up that’s the pain in the ass. (Side-note: I didn’t actually intend for that pun to happen–I caught it on a quick proof-read. Aren’t I clever? (Say “yes” — it makes me feel good.))

So… I guess outlining the steps for what I need to do in order to “eat the elephant” would be a good thing, but there are so many things that I feel have to happen at the same time, I’m not sure how to prioritize.

I guess I keep treading water until I figure out another stroke.

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